Song Lyrics

[Verse 1]
First kiss, down by the beach
Seventeen, sand stuck to our feet
You looked at me like I was gold
Said, "Don't be scared, just lose control"
We carved our names in the wood
You said we'd come back, we never would
You were already chasing skies
Even then, I saw the flight in your eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
And I stayed right where we began
While you became more sky than man

[Chorus]
You’re the Hawk I couldn’t catch
Too high, too far, too fast
You left and I stayed small
But I still hear you when I fall
I say I’ve let it fade with time
But I saw you again at twenty-nine
And just like that, I broke in two
I still love you, and I always do

[Verse 2]
I saw you again that autumn night
Ten years gone, but you still felt right
You smiled like the world hadn’t changed
I smiled like I’d done the same
You asked if I still thought of us
I laughed it off, I played it tough
But your voice hit like a wave
Took me straight back to the life we gave

[Pre-Chorus]
And maybe you don’t feel it too
But every part of me remembers you

[Chorus]
You’re the Hawk I couldn’t catch
Too wild to ever come back
You moved on like the wind does
And I’m still choking on your dust
I tell myself I’m doing fine
But I still sleep in what you left behind
It’s been years, but it’s still true
I still love you, and I always do

[Bridge]
That hoodie still lives on my bed
And your name still lives in my head
You kissed me soft, you kissed me sure
And I’ve never felt anything more pure
We were kids with hearts too big
But you were always meant to live
In open skies, not arms like mine
Still, I hoped you'd circle back in time

[Final Chorus]
You’re the Hawk I couldn’t hold
You left young and you left cold
You came back, but not to stay
Just to haunt me in a brand new way
I pretend that I’ve outgrown
That beach, that look, that kind of home
But you still fly through everything I do
I still love you, and I always do

[Verse 1]
You showed up like you always do
Soft words, fake truth
You said you missed me, said you changed
But I knew better, same old game
You pulled me close, you played it kind
But you were already flying blind
You took my body, left my mind
And vanished right on time

[Pre-Chorus 1]
You didn’t stay, you never planned
I was just something you could land

[Chorus 1]
I don’t need goodbye
You already said enough with your lie
You used my love and left me bare
Then acted like you were never there
You’re the Hawk, you never stay
You leave the second things get grey
You don’t get one more word to try
I don’t need goodbye
To say goodbye

[Verse 2]
You looked me in the eyes and lied
You spoke of Hollie like she'd arrive
A baby name, a future fake
You built a dream just to watch it break
You knew I’d hold on, you knew I’d fall
But you were never there at all
You said “forever,” meant “tonight”
You flew off by morning light

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You gave her name, but not her life
Just words you used to twist the knife

[Chorus 2]
I don’t need goodbye
You don’t deserve another try
You fed me hope, then killed it fast
Now you're just someone in my past
You’re the Hawk who flies alone
Hollie was a lie you’d never own
You don’t get tears, you don’t get why
I don’t need goodbye
To learn to fly

[Bridge]
You called it love, but it was need
You left a scar I didn’t bleed
You spoke her name like it was peace
But it was just your sweet release
I gave it heart, I gave it breath
You gave it silence and regret

[Final Chorus]
I don’t need goodbye
You said it all when you passed me by
I gave you truth, you gave me games
Now I don’t even speak your name
You flew in just to disappear
But I’m still here and crystal clear
No last words, no second cry
I don’t need goodbye
To say goodbye

[Verse 1]
We were just friends, you knew the line
Told you “no” a hundred times
You’d laugh it off, play it cool
Said, “You know I’d never push the rules”
But that night, I lost my grip
Slurred my words, started to slip
You poured another, watched me spin
And waited quiet while you stepped in


[Pre-Chorus]
You saw the lights go down
You waited till I turned around


[Chorus]
I wasn’t yours to touch
You knew that, I said enough
You waited for the moment
When I couldn’t fight you off
I wasn’t teasing, I wasn’t free
I was leaning on you to look out for me
You took your chance, didn’t make a sound
You moved in close
When I turned around

[Verse 2]
Wasn’t in your bed, wasn’t bold
Just a girl too drunk and cold
Barefoot, leaning on the sink
You knew I couldn’t even think
I felt your breath before your hand
I froze too fast to take a stand
And you just kept pretending care
Like I had wanted you right there

[Pre-Chorus]
You didn’t ask, you didn’t pause
You knew damn well what my no was

[Chorus]
I wasn’t yours to take
But you treated me like a mistake
You waited till my guard was gone
And then you proved I’d been wrong
I wasn’t asking, wasn’t weak
But you came in when I couldn’t speak
You didn’t stop, you didn’t back down
You made your move
When I turned around

[Bridge]
Now I jump at every stare
Trust don’t live for me anywhere
You ruined kind, you ruined care
And left your guilt in my despair

[Final Chorus]
I wasn’t yours, you heard me say
No a thousand sober ways
But you waited for the wine to hit
Then acted like I wanted it
Now you live like nothing’s wrong
But I’ve been carrying this all along
I remember every sound
And the silence
When I turned around

[Outro]
You weren’t confused
You weren’t drunk
You just did what you wanted
And called it love
But I was clear
And you knew the ground
Still you broke me
When I turned around

[Verse 1]
I gave him names he never wore
Called him honest, called him more
Fed my hope on every lie
While he sharpened his wings to fly
Built him gods from broken glass
Swore his silence meant he'd last
Buried warnings in my chest
But craving always sounded like yes

[Pre-Chorus]
I wrote his face into my skin
Screamed he'd break the hurt I was in
But he was gone before I fell
And I still worshipped at that shell

[Chorus]
He was never coming back
Never stayed to see the cracks
I drowned for him, broke for two
But he never lost sleep over me
I stitched his name into my veins
While he forgot me, played his games
Cold truth carved into black
He was never coming back

[Verse 2]
I romanticised his hands, his words
While he buried me under the dirt
I made his absence some grand ache
But he just left, it wasn’t fate
Told myself I was the storm
But he walked away untouched, warm
I burned down everything I knew
For a man who never fought for me

[Pre-Chorus]
I held the ashes, kissed the pain
Convinced it meant he’d feel the same
But his love never hit the floor
It was always less, I just wanted more

[Chorus]
He was never coming back
Never stayed to patch the cracks
I bled for him, begged for signs
While he was building other lies
I made him rare, made him ache
But he just left and watched me break
Truth I choked but couldn’t unpack
He was never coming back

[Bridge]
I named the ghost my only cure
Let obsession make me sure
But his love was plastic, sharp, and thin
And I kept breaking, not him

[Final Chorus]
He was never coming back
My loyalty cracked my spine in half
I bled out worth, shattered pride
While he ghosted out the other side
I made him more, carved him deep
But ghosts don’t stay, they never weep
Let it sting, let it crack
He was never, never coming back

[Verse 1]
You said “I love you” every night
Like it was nothing, like it was right
Pulled me close, made me believe
Then left your lies inside of me
You kissed like truth, but you were fake
Every promise, every ache
You built me up just to destroy
Played me like your broken toy

[Pre-Chorus 1]
I gave you everything I had
You smiled while I cracked in half

[Chorus 1]
You never meant it
Not the love, not the touch, not one damn second
Said the words just to keep me blind
While you tore me down line by line
I was bleeding, calling it fate
You were gone before it got late
Now I’m screaming, done with this
You never meant it

[Verse 2]
You loved control, you loved the game
You loved me weak, loved me in chains
Every "babe" and every lie
Was just to keep me asking why
I stayed too long, I played it soft
You took and took, then cut me off
And while I begged for something real
You smiled like I was just a meal

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I see the truth behind your grin
You broke me just to win

[Chorus 2]
You never meant it
Not the tears, not the laughs, not the nights we spent in
Held me down with your quiet hands
While you planned your next escape plan
I was loving, raw and true
You were always halfway through
Now I’m rising, sick of this
You never meant it

[Bridge]
Don’t say sorry
Don’t say “I tried”
You didn’t love me
You just liked
Watching me fall
Hearing me break
Feeding me love
You knew was fake

[Final Chorus]
You never meant it
You just loved the way I broke while trying to fix it
Said "forever" just to feel control
Then left me shattered, cold and alone
You never loved me, not one bit
You loved the power, loved the hit
But I’m done being your regret
I know now
You never meant it

[Verse 1]
I used to tear myself apart
Thinking where I lost my heart
Tore my mind up every night
Trying to figure why the fuck you left me dry
Took me a year to see it clear
You never cared, you were never near
Played me dumb, wore your disguise
Left me begging, fed me lies

[Pre-Chorus]
I don't lose sleep like I used to
Now I know the truth about you

[Chorus]
Now I know you never meant shit to me
Every word, a chain to bleed me
Pulled me close just to break me down
Fed me lies, let me fucking drown
Now I know you were never real
Hollow name, dead cold steel
You wore my heart like it was yours
But I was standing alone all along

[Verse 2]
I blamed myself like it was fact
Thought I cracked, thought I lacked
But every scar, every snap
Was just proof I fell in your trap
Not the man I thought I knew
You were just a mirror breaking through

[Pre-Chorus]
I don't lose sleep like I used to
Now I see straight through you

[Chorus]
Now I know you never meant shit to me
Every word, a chain to bleed me
Pulled me close just to break me down
Fed me lies, let me fucking drown
Now I know
You were never real
Hollow name, dead cold steel
You wore my heart like it was yours
But I was standing alone all along

[Bridge]
Every message, every fake word
Every ‘miss you’ I never deserved
Every empty call, fake claim
Nothing real, just your fucking game

[Final Chorus]
Now I know you never meant shit to me
Every word, a chain to bleed me
Pulled me close just to break me down
Fed me lies, let me fucking drown
Now I know
You were never real
Hollow name, dead cold steel
You wore my heart like it was yours
But I was standing alone all along

[Outro]
Now I know
Run all you want, you can’t hide
Your name’s carved in every line
You wore my heart like it was yours
But I was standing alone all along

[Verse 1]
I burned alive in silence, yeah
Died in every lie you said
You tore me open, let me bleed
But I didn’t die, I started to breathe
Pain became my armor
Ash became my breath
You didn’t kill me, you just let me find
What’s left

[Pre-Chorus]
I shed my softness, shed my skin
Now you’ll never get back in
You lit the match, you watched me fall
But baby, I outlived it all

[Chorus]
Now I rise in phoenix skin
Stronger than I’ve ever been
You took the light, I made it fire
Built a throne out of the pyre
You can’t reach me, you can’t win
I’m not her, I’m what begins
You lost me when I lost the pain
Now I walk out of the flame

[Verse 2]
I used to beg for mercy
Now I don’t pray at all
I answer to no one
Not even to the fall
You fed me hell, I ate it
Now it runs through my veins
You wanted me to disappear
But I became the flames

[Pre-Chorus]
No more crying, no collapse
I found my breath beneath the ash
You made the storm, I became the sky
Now I just watch you wonder why

[Chorus]
Now I rise in phoenix skin
Stripped of who I could have been
You made a monster, made a flame
But I’m not burning down in shame
You can’t touch me, you can’t win
I’m not her, I’m what begins
You lost control when I took name
Now I walk out of the flame

[Bridge]
This isn’t peace, this isn’t grace
It’s power written on my face
This is the cost of every sin
I don’t forgive, I rise again

[Final Chorus]
Now I rise in phoenix skin
Unrecognizable within
No more begging, no more chains
Just wings born from all the pain
I’m untouchable, I’m new
There’s nothing left for you to do
I’m the ashes you can’t claim
And I’m walking
Out of the flame

[Verse 1]
You left first and that’s the fact
Didn’t flinch, didn’t look back
Played your lines, rehearsed them clean
Kept the cracks just out of reach
Said I’m different, made it sound true
Funny how it’s all just you
Took a year but now I see
You never meant a thing to me

[Chorus]
Took me a year to break that spell
A year to pull the mask and tell
Every lie dressed up as proof
Every line you used as truth
Took me a year but now it’s plain
You’re not deep, you’re just the same
Took me a year but now it’s clear
There’s nothing left to keep here

[Verse 2]
You made it sound like I was safe
Same old lines, just changed the name
Said you’d change but that’s a trick
You don’t fix what never sticks
Told me better’s what I need
Turns out better starts with me
Took a year but now it’s done
All your damage comes undone

[Chorus]
Took me a year to break that spell
A year to pull the mask and tell
Every lie dressed up as proof
Every line you used as truth
Took me a year but now it’s plain
You’re not deep, you’re just the same
Took me a year but now it’s clear
There’s nothing left to keep here

[Bridge]
Fake I love you, painted bright
Covered cracks, blocked the light
Time cuts clean, truth breaks skin
Now I see what’s always been

[Final Chorus]
Took me a year to break that spell
A year to pull the mask and tell
Every lie dressed up as proof
Every line you used as truth
Took me a year but now it’s plain
You’re not deep, you’re just the same
Took me a year but now it’s clear
There’s nothing left to keep here

[Outro]
Yeah you left but I walked too
Took a year to see the truth

[Verse 1]
You said I was safe with you
Said you'd never walk away
Called me your constant, your home
Then dropped me like dead weight
You said I made you better
Said no one else gets close
Then fucked me over with a smile
Like love was just a joke


[Pre-Chorus]
You said it, over and over
And I was dumb enough to believe
Now I tattoo every word you spoke
As proof you knew how to deceive

[Chorus]

You said you loved me
But you loved control
Said you’d protect me
But left me cold
Said I was different
Then treated me cheap
Fed me your lies
While you fucked me to sleep
You called it real
Now I call it sick
You called it love
But you meant trick
Don’t ever say
You meant it once
You said you loved me
But you just loved what you got


[Verse 2]
You said you'd never lie
But left out half the truth
Said it wasn’t about sex
But still stripped me down for proof
Said I was all you needed
But needed someone else
You didn’t love me
You just loved how I felt


[Pre-Chorus]
You wrote me lines like a fucking script
Like it was all rehearsed and clean
But I’ve kept every twisted line
To show them what you really mean


[Chorus]
You said you loved me
But you loved control
Said you’d protect me
But left me cold
Said I was different
Then treated me cheap
Fed me your lies
While you fucked me to sleep
You called it real
Now I call it sick
You called it love
But you meant trick
Don’t ever say
You meant it once
You said you loved me
But you just loved what you got


[Bridge]
I bled for that line
Held on like it mattered
But you were just bored
And I was just shattered
Say it again, I dare you now
Say it slow, so I can laugh out loud


[Final Chorus]
You said you loved me
You swore it was true
But real love doesn’t
Destroy like you do
You said you loved me
What a fucking joke
You loved the damage
You left when you broke
Say it again
Like it means a thing
You said you loved me
But you didn’t feel a thing

[Verse 1]
You don’t say my name, not in daylight
You don’t look back when she’s in sight
You play the part, you play it clean
But I still haunt you in between
She’s your answer, I’m your itch
The one you buried, but never quit
You smile like you’re over me
But I know what you feel when you try to sleep

[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t want me
But you want the way I made you weak

[Chorus]
I’m your crack, your curse, your fix
The poison hit you couldn’t quit
You hate the high, you hate the need
But you still crave the taste of me
She’s your calm, I’m your vice
The one mistake that felt too right
You don’t want love, you want control
But I’m the one that shakes your soul

[Verse 2]
She fits easy, fits the plan
I was the chaos you couldn’t stand
You called me loud, called me wrong
But I’m the pull that’s still too strong
You kiss her slow, keep your pace
But you feel me like a heat you chase
I’m not your now, I’m not your plan
But I’m the rush you still can’t stand

[Pre-Chorus]
You tell yourself you’ve moved ahead
But I still dance inside your head

[Chorus]
I’m your crack, your need, your flaw
The girl that broke your perfect law
You hate the way I make you feel
‘Cause I’m the only thing that’s real
She’s your Sunday, I’m your sin
The one you lost but breathe back in
You don’t want truth, you want to lie
But I’m still fire in your quiet sky

[Bridge]
You’ll never say it, never show
But I’m the part you can’t let go
I’m not the one you want to choose
But I’m the one you hate to lose

[Final Chorus]
I’m your crack, your ghost, your burn
The lesson that you never learn
You try to run, you try to hide
But I’m the hunger deep inside
You don’t want love, you want escape
But I’m the taste you still replay
You’ll never call, but you still feel
I’m the craving that won’t heal

Verse 1]
You look at me like you just know
Like I’m the place you wanna go
I play along, I wear the face
But there’s no feeling in this space
I say the words you wanna hear
I let you pull me close, stay near
But in my chest, it’s empty air
I’m not falling, I’m just there

[Pre-Chorus]
You think this means something to me
But I let you believe

[Chorus]
You still believe I want the same
You think I’m caught up in the flame
You feel real, I feel numb
You chase love, I just run
You see forever in my eyes
I’ve got a temporary high
I don’t stop you, I let it be
You still believe but that’s on me

[Verse 2]
You talk about the things we’ll do
I nod my head, I smile too
But none of this is sinking in
I’m never letting you begin
You’re all in deep, I’m barely here
I keep the lines blurred, crystal clear
I’m holding back, I’m staying cold
I’m not the story that you’re sold

[Pre-Chorus]
You think this means something to me
But I let you believe

[Chorus]
You still believe I want the same
You think I’m caught up in the flame
You feel real, I feel numb
You chase love, I just run
You see forever in my eyes
I’ve got a temporary high
I don’t stop you, I let it be
You still believe but that’s on me

[Bridge]
I don’t correct you when you dream
I just keep playing out this scene
I’m not the ending that you see
But I let you believe

[Final Chorus]
You still believe I want the same
You think I’m caught up in the flame
You feel real, I feel numb
You chase love, I just run
You see forever in my eyes
I’ve got a temporary high
I don’t stop you, I let it be
You still believe but that’s on me

[Outro]
I don’t stop you, I let it be
You still believe but that’s on me

[Verse 1]
You tell yourself you’ve shut me down
Like I’m a habit you’ve outgrown
You say it’s done, you say it’s gone
But that calm never lasts long
You keep quiet, lock it tight
But I still hit you late at night
No name, no call, no sign
But I’m still running through your mind

[Pre-Chorus 1]
You fight it off, you shut the door
But I’m still there, just like before

[Chorus]
You crave it anyway, even when it burns
Try to drown it out, but I still return
No name, no face, no proof to show
I’m the ghost you can’t let go
You crave it anyway, doesn’t matter why
Still feel me hit when the night runs dry
You keep quiet, but it won’t change
I’m the pull you can’t explain

[Verse 2]
You switch it off, you kill the sound
But I’m still there when no one’s around
You fill the space, you play it right
But silence always wins the fight
You chase calm, but lose control
Pretend it’s nothing, feel it roll
You shut your eyes, but I’m still near
You’ll never outrun what’s already here

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You fight it off, lock the door tight
But I’m still there, like I’ll always be

[Chorus]
You crave it anyway, even when it burns
Try to drown it out, but I still return
No name, no face, no proof to show
I’m the ghost you can’t let go
You crave it anyway, doesn’t matter why
Still feel me hit when the night runs dry
You keep quiet, but it won’t change
I’m the pull you can’t explain

[Bridge]
You don’t call, you don’t break
But I still hit when you’re awake
Not a name, not a face
Just a ghost you can’t escape

[Final Chorus]
You crave it anyway, even when it burns
Try to drown it out, but I still return
No name, no face, no proof to show
I’m the ghost you can’t let go
You crave it anyway, can’t say why
Still feel me hit when the night runs dry
You keep quiet, but it won’t fade
I’m the ghost you can’t outrun

[Verse 1]
Is she lying on your chest right now?
Do you hold her like you held me down?
Does she know what that spot once meant?
Or do you flinch when she gets too content?
You say you’ve moved, you say you’re good
But I know the way you fake your moods
She’s got your hand, but not your mind
Tell me, do I cross it time to time?

[Pre-Chorus]
When the lights are low and she’s asleep
Do your thoughts start slipping back to me?

[Chorus]
Do you ever wish for one more night?
One more taste of that wildfire light
Do you miss the way I said your name
Not soft, not safe, but untamed
Would you trade her calm for my chaos?
Would you wake me up in your darkest dream?
Be honest, boy, don’t lie tonight
Do you ever wish for one more night?

[Verse 2]
When she leans in and closes space
Does it ever feel a little misplaced?
She plays it gentle, plays it sweet
But can she pull your soul to your knees?
You think of me, I know you do
In every fight she doesn’t get you through
She’s warm and soft, but not the fight
You lost the fire, not just the girl that night

[Pre-Chorus]
You can fake your smile and lock your jaw
But I still see through every flaw

[Chorus]
Do you ever wish for one more night?
The kind we never cared what’s right
Do you miss the scratch, the bite, the burn?
Do her hands feel soft but never earned?
Would you risk her trust for just one call?
Would you watch us rise just to let her fall?
You say you’re fine, but your eyes don’t lie
Do you ever wish for one more night?

[Bridge]
I’m the ghost she doesn’t know
Still wrapped around your soul
And if you close your eyes too long
You’ll hear my voice like a song

[Final Chorus]
Do you ever wish for one more taste?
The rush you swore you’d never replace
Do you lie in bed and play pretend
Or trace the edge of what we could’ve been?
She’s good, she’s kind, but not that high
I’m the reason your heart won’t lie
Say what you want, but we both know right
You still wish for one more night

[Verse 1]
You dressed it up pretty, made it sound sincere
Pulled the strings tight, kept me tangled here
“Safe place,” “constant,” “you care the most”
Turns out, I was just the fool you chose
Fed me lines like you cared at all
“You’re different,” “you get me” rehearsed, small talk
Played the broken card, played the perfect man
But it all falls apart when you can’t withstand

[Pre-Chorus]
You weren’t lost, you weren’t scared
You just never cared
Everything rehearsed, everything planned
Another coward hiding behind a man

[Chorus]
There’s rot behind the smile, poison in your words
Everything you promised was rehearsed
“I’ll change,” “I love you,” “I need you close”
All scripted lies, all empty ghosts
You weren’t broken, you weren’t real
You just liked how easy I was to steal
There’s rot behind the smile, now it shows
You’re not complex, you’re just hollow

[Verse 2]
“You make me happy,” “I feel safe” staged
You said all the right shit to keep me caged
“I don’t wanna lose you,” but you lost me twice
Guess your comfort always came at my price
Told me I “deserved better” yeah, I do
Better than wasted time wrapped around you
Better than falling for your half-grown mess
Better than waiting for you to confess

[Pre-Chorus]
You weren’t lost, you weren’t scared
You just never cared
Everything rehearsed, everything planned
Another coward hiding behind a man

[Chorus]
There’s rot behind the smile, poison in your words
Everything you promised was rehearsed
“I’ll change,” “I love you,” “I need you close”
All scripted lies, all empty ghosts
You weren’t broken, you weren’t real
You just liked how easy I was to steal
There’s rot behind the smile, now it shows
You’re not complex, you’re just hollow

[Bridge]
Save the speeches, save the lines
I’ve bled enough for your design
Keep the pity, keep the mask
I’ve seen the wreckage, seen the cracks

[Final Chorus]
There’s rot behind the smile, poison in your words
Everything you promised was rehearsed
“I’ll change,” “I love you,” “I need you close”
All scripted lies, all empty ghosts
You weren’t broken, you weren’t real
You just liked how easy I was to steal
There’s rot behind the smile, now it shows
You’re not complicated, you’re just hollow

[Outro]
The mask is gone, the wreckage clear
You were never worth the tears

[Verse 1]
Do you think of me when she’s undressing?
When she’s quiet, do you feel the guessing?
Does she touch you like she means it deep
Or does it feel like she's just tryna compete?
When she leans in, does it feel like home
Or do you flinch when you're left alone?
You told me I was hard to keep...
So why can’t you get me outta your sleep?

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I’m gone, but you rewind
Every kiss, every fight, every dirty line

[Chorus]
Does she remind you of the way I moved?
The way I whispered when I wanted you?
When she slides her hands up your chest
Do you wish that it was me instead?
Does she fake wild, but feel tame?
Do you miss the way I said your name?
When she loves you, does it sting to see
She’s trying too hard to replace me?

[Verse 2]
Does she laugh too soft? Keep it safe?
Or does she bring the chaos that you crave?
Does she ask you where you’ve been at night
Or does she swallow every lie in sight?
When she kisses you, do you feel whole
Or is it just a body, not a soul?
You wanted easy, now you’ve got clean
But clean don't stick like what we’ve been

[Pre-Chorus]
You said I broke you, said I ran
But I was the one who knew your hands

[Chorus]
Does she remind you of the nights we shared?
The way I moaned without a care?
When she bites your neck and pulls you in
Do you wish it was me on your skin?
Do her hands feel wrong, do her words fall flat?
Do you ever wanna take it back?
When she loves you, is it clear to see
She’ll never burn like me?

[Bridge]
I don’t want you back, I just hope you ache
Hope every touch reminds you what’s fake
Hope you see my face when she turns low
And feel the loss you’ll never show

[Final Chorus]
Does she remind you of the way I screamed?
The fire, the fight, the in-between?
When she loves you slow, plays it right
Do you miss the girl who kept you up all night?
Does she follow rules, does she keep things neat?
Or does she shake your world like me?
You let me go, now you get to see
She’ll never be me

[Verse 1]
You said you'd never hurt me
But your hands said otherwise
Touched me slow, then left me bleeding
Every word behind disguise
You kissed like love, but felt like fire
Told me lies wrapped up in skin
You looked like heaven on the outside
But I swear you’re the devil’s twin

[Pre-Chorus 1]
I gave you light, you gave me chains
You fed me truth, laced with pain

[Chorus 1]
Two months of lies, two months of games
You wore my body, spit my name
Said I was special, you just lied
Used my soul, then stepped aside
I gave you heart, you gave me ash
Now I burn what we once had
Lucifer’s grin, the devil’s sin
I let you in. You let hell win

[Verse 2]
You’re thirty and still hollow
Dressed in charm, fake and thin
You used me up, then played the victim
Told the world I reeled you in
You called it “timing,” called it “space,”
But you just wanted one more taste
You painted me like I was dirt
While you kept clean in all my hurt

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You broke me quiet, played it cool
I see the devil, I played the fool

[Chorus 2]
Two months of shame, two months of scars
I was your silence, you made me starve
You never cared, you never tried
You held me close so you could hide
I gave you more than you deserved
Now all you get is every word
Lucifer's charm, the devil’s grin
You fed on me, then left again

[Bridge]
You never loved me, just the chase
You smiled while taking up my space
You lied like scripture, kissed like knives
You broke me clean, then built more lies
And when they see what's underneath
They’ll know you hide with demon teeth

[Final Chorus]
Two months of hell, and I still scream
You killed the girl inside my dream
You broke my voice, you cracked my skin
Then called it love, then called it sin
You walked away, all proud and clean
But I’m the fire, you’re kerosene
You played the saint, you wore a grin
But I know truth
You’re Lucifer’s twin

[Verse 1]
I ran the game, I played it well
Tore through hearts, I couldn’t tell
Fed the lies, made them fall
Watched them crumble, felt nothing at all
Thought I’d never pay the price
Built my world on thin disguise
But karma’s quiet, karma waits
And now she’s laughing in my face

[Pre-Chorus]
Didn’t flinch, didn’t care
Till I saw myself right there

[Chorus]
Karma got me good
Sent you in to take me down
Used me up, ripped me out
Left me choking on my doubt
I played with hearts, thought I’d win
Now I drown in my own sin
Thought I’d run, misunderstood
Karma got me good

[Verse 2]
I left the mess, I wore the crown
Watched them fall, I stood my ground
Laughed it off, cold and clean
Didn’t feel a goddamn thing
But you walked in, played it sweet
Cut me down, knocked my feet
Guess I earned the hit I took
Guess karma doesn’t miss a look

[Pre-Chorus]
Didn’t flinch, didn’t care
Till I saw myself right there

[Chorus]
Karma got me good
Sent you in to take me down
Used me up, ripped me out
Left me choking on my doubt
I played with hearts, thought I’d win
Now I drown in my own sin
Thought I’d run, misunderstood
Karma got me good

[Bridge]
All the games, all the lies
Now I wear them in my eyes
Didn’t bleed when I broke them
But now I bleed again, again

[Final Chorus]
Karma got me good
Didn’t flinch, she took her time
Sent you in to wreck my pride
Left me ruined on the line
I played with hearts, I wrecked the rules
Now I’m the fool beneath your shoes
Thought I’d run, misunderstood
Karma got me good

[Verse 1]
I used to be soft, I used to bend
Now I don’t break, I just end
You turned love into a weapon
Now I sharpen it with no regret
I used to beg for something real
Now I forget how to feel
You didn’t just hurt me, you built this
So don’t act shocked when I’m ruthless

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I’m cold, say I’ve changed
But baby, that’s your name engraved
I’m just the mirror you don’t wanna see
This is what you made of me

[Chorus]
You made me hard, you made me wild
You made the girl you killed go vile
You made me fire with no flame
A pretty face, no heart, no shame
You made me silence, sharp as glass
You made me first, but never last
You wonder why I’m not the same
Look in the mirror
This is what you made

[Verse 2]
I don’t believe in second chances
Don’t write back, don’t read the captions
You taught me how to disappear
Now I’m a ghost you taste in fear
I used to cry when you’d let go
Now I just watch and hope you choke
I hate this skin, but it fits tight
And you built every jagged bite

[Pre-Chorus]
You say I’m bitter, say I’m cruel
But I learned that in your rules
You broke the girl you used to need
Now she’s gone, and this is me

[Chorus]
You made me sharp, you made me stone
You made sure I stood alone
You made me numb, you made me dry
You made me smile while I’d die
You made me rage without a sound
You made me love, then cut me down
So don’t ask why I feel this way
You know damn well
It’s what you made

[Bridge]
I didn’t want this, I didn’t choose
But you left scars that taught me to bruise
Now I wear pain like a crown
And I won’t ever tone it down

[Final Chorus]
You made me cold, you made me steel
You made me fake what I don’t feel
You made a storm you couldn’t stop
Now I’m the fall after the drop
You made me wicked, made me sharp
And I don’t even have a heart
You built this dark, you carved my shape
So take a bow
For what you made

[Verse 1]
They always think they’ll change the game
But every ending feels the same
They fall hard, I stay dry
I watch them shatter, watch them try
They chase a ghost, they never see
There’s nothing real inside of me
I keep them close until they break
Then disappear without the ache

[Chorus]
They always fall, I never care
And yeah, I love to watch them tear
They break apart, I stand still
It’s never me that takes the spill
They always fall, they always lose
And I don’t bruise
I never bruise

[Verse 2]
They call it fate, they call it love
But I don’t feel a thing above
I smile wide, I play along
I love to prove their instincts wrong
They wanna fix, they wanna save
But I just dig a deeper grave
I never flinch, I never plead
I love to watch them bleed for me

[Chorus]
They always fall, I never care
And yeah, I love to watch them tear
They break apart, I stand still
It’s never me that takes the spill
They always fall, they always lose
And I don’t bruise
I never bruise

[Bridge]
It’s not regret, it’s not pretend
I love the cracks, I love the end
They write their stories in their head
But I already planned their end

[Final Chorus]
They always fall, I never care
And yeah, I love to watch them tear
They break apart, I stand still
It’s never me that takes the spill
They always fall, they always lose
And I don’t bruise
I never bruise

[Outro]
Yeah, they always fall
And I love it all

[Verse 1]
You taught me how to burn it down
Smile wide while I tear it out
You built this sharp, you built this numb
I wreck for fun, then watch them run
I used to break, I used to care
But that part’s buried under there
Now I’m the damage walking clean
The bitter mess you left in me

[Chorus]
I’m ruined on purpose
Cold by design
I rip it apart before it’s mine
I don’t love, I don’t stay
I leave them empty every day
You taught me how to kill the spark
Now all I leave is broken parts
I’m ruined on purpose
You built it that way

[Verse 2]
I smile sweet, they never see
The shattered parts beneath my teeth
I pull them close, then tear the seams
You made me worse than I believed
They call it cruel, they call it wrong
But I’ve been hollow all along
You gave me scars, I learned the game
Now every face just fades the same

[Chorus]
I’m ruined on purpose
Cold by design
I rip it apart before it’s mine
I don’t love, I don’t stay
I leave them empty every day
You taught me how to kill the spark
Now all I leave is broken parts
I’m ruined on purpose
You built it that way

[Bridge]
It’s not revenge, it’s not regret
It’s who I am, I won’t forget
You wrecked the good, you left the ash
I tear them down and never ask

[Final Chorus]
I’m ruined on purpose
Cold by design
I rip it apart before it’s mine
I don’t love, I don’t stay
I leave them empty every day
You taught me how to kill the spark
Now all I leave is broken parts
I’m ruined on purpose
You built it that way

[Outro]
Yeah, you built it that way
Ruined on purpose

[Verse 1]
I hope your world comes crashing down
And no one's there to hear the sound
I hope you drown in your own pride
And choke on every time you lied
I hope your hands forget their grip
That every plan begins to slip
I hope you feel what I went through
And worse
Because you wanted to

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t want peace, I don’t want grace
I want to see your damn disgrace
No healing arc, no happy end
Just karma crawling through your skin

[Chorus]
I hope it hurts, I hope it burns
I hope your whole life twists and turns
I hope you lose what you pretend
And never find yourself again
I hope your nights are cold as hell
That every secret starts to swell
I don’t forgive
I don’t reverse
I hope it cuts
I hope it hurts

[Verse 2]
I hope your smile falls off your face
And silence screams inside your space
I hope your name becomes a curse
That everything you touch gets worse
I hope your heart forgets to beat
That every win ends in defeat
I want to watch you break apart
And carry pieces of my scars

[Pre-Chorus]
You don’t deserve to rise or grow
I want you buried in what you sowed
I want the world to watch you fall
While I stand tall above it all

[Chorus]
I hope it hurts, I hope it stays
I hope you rot in your own ways
I hope you fade out slow and small
And no one’s there to see you crawl
I hope regret eats you alive
With every truth you can’t survive
I won’t forget
I won’t unlearn
I hope you drown
I hope it burns

[Bridge]
I won’t move on, I won’t let go
I want your pain to fully show
You made me nothing, made me bleed
Now I want you to need and plead
And find there’s nothing left to steal
‘Cause you destroyed what could’ve healed

[Final Chorus]
I hope it hurts, more every day
Until your joy just fades away
I hope you scream and no one hears
I hope you rot beneath your fears
I want to watch, I want to see
You fall apart because of me
You made your bed
Now feel the curse
I won’t save you
I hope it hurts

[Verse 1]
You thought I came back to forgive
But I came back to watch you live
Just long enough to drop your guard
Then twist the knife in every scar
I smiled like I forgot the past
But I was counting down so fast
Every kiss, every soft word
Just another weapon you never heard

[Pre-Chorus 1]
You thought you won another chance
I let you dance then killed the dance

[Chorus 1]
I came back to break you
Slow and sharp, so you'd never see through
I played sweet, I played warm
But I was the fucking storm
I made you fall, then watched you bleed
I fed your hope and starved your need
You thought I came to heal what’s true
But I only came
To shatter you

[Verse 2]
You laid your love down like a bet
I smiled and doubled all the debt
I let you think I gave a damn
While planning where the pain would land
I wore the dress, I said the lines
I let you sleep between my lies
You never saw the trap, the trick
But I was loaded, dark, and slick

[Pre-Chorus 2]
You begged for peace, I gave you war
I let you knock, then slammed the door

[Chorus 2]
I came back to break you
With every lie I dressed as true
I let you think I gave a fuck
While dragging you through all my muck
I didn’t heal, I didn’t bend
I just came back to end your end
You thought this love was something new
But I only came
To ruin you

[Bridge – Spoken/Sung]
This was never mercy
This was never love
This was every scream I swallowed
Turned into a shove
You gave me pain, I gave it worse
Wrapped it soft, then dropped a curse

[Final Chorus]
I came back to break you
Built you up just to fucking fake you
You held me like your past was clean
But I was writing your final scene
I gave you heaven for one night
Then left you wrecked by morning light
You thought I came to see it through
But I never came
To love you

[Verse 1]
You thought you were smooth, getting around
Sloppy lies, thinking I’d never find out
You touched her skin like I didn’t exist
But I saw it all and I couldn’t resist

[Pre-Chorus]
No confession, no remorse
You wrote the script, I changed the course

[Chorus]
Karma wore my skin and I loved the burn
Made you choke on lessons you’ll never learn
While you were busy thinking you’d won
I was out there, getting it done
You think you’re clean, you think you’re king
I cut deeper, left scars you’ll never see
This isn’t mercy, this is the sting
Karma wore my skin and I don’t regret a thing

[Verse 2]
Smiled in your face while I stayed ahead
You cheated loud, I burned it down
You played it sloppy, I played it cold
I ran the game and I kept control

[Chorus]
Karma wore my skin and I loved the burn
Made you choke on lessons you’ll never learn
While you were busy thinking you’d won
I was out there, getting it done
You think you’re clean, you think you’re king
I cut deeper, left scars you’ll never see
This isn’t mercy, this is the sting
Karma wore my skin and I don’t regret a thing

[Bridge]
You’ll never know the names, the nights
The clean escapes, the perfect lies
My silence is the loudest win
Your punishment lives under your skin

[Breakdown]
No guilt, no shame
You made me
I mastered your game

[Final Chorus]
Karma wore my skin and I loved the burn
Made you choke on lessons you’ll never learn
While you were busy thinking you’d won
I was out there, getting it done
You think you’re clean, you think you’re king
I cut deeper, left scars you’ll never see
This isn’t mercy, this is the sting
Karma wore my skin and I don’t regret a thing

[Outro]
I don’t regret a thing
Never again

[Verse 1]
Big talk, small facts
You sold the dream, I saw the cracks
Thought you had me stuck for good
Guess you misunderstood
Played it smooth, played it clean
Thought I’d never see the strings
But underneath it’s always been
Small as you, nothing in between

[Chorus]
You’re not impressive, never were
It’s all small truth, you tried to blur
Played the man, played it loud
Couldn’t measure up when it counts
All that ego, all that front
But small stays small when the mask comes off
You’re not impressive, never been
Nothing deeper, nothing within

[Verse 2]
All your charm, all your spin
Thought you’d keep the cracks hidden in
But the lights go out, the act fades fast
And small’s the only thing that lasts
Talked a big game, took your shot
But the truth don’t stretch what you’ve got
Not a man, not a threat
Nothing there to impress

[Chorus]
You’re not impressive, never were
It’s all small truth, you tried to blur
Played the man, played it loud
Couldn’t measure up when it counts
All that ego, all that front
But small stays small when the mask comes off
You’re not impressive, never been
Nothing deeper, nothing within

[Bridge]
It’s not revenge, it’s not spite
It’s just facts you can’t rewrite
Played it loud, walked away
But small stays small at the end of the day

[Final Chorus]
You’re not impressive, never were
It’s all small truth, you tried to blur
Played the man, played it loud
Couldn’t measure up when it counts
All that ego, all that front
But small stays small when the mask comes off
You’re not impressive, never been
Nothing deeper, nothing within

[Outro]
You fooled yourself, not me
Small’s all you’ll ever be

[Verse 1]
You’re not deep, you’re just full of shit
Small man, small dick, small mind, that’s all you ever been
Walking around like you’re some king
But no crown, no guts, no spine
You fuck, lie, vanish, repeat
You were never mine
Played the fool while you fed your ego
Now I see it crystal clear
You were nothing but fake relief

[Pre-Chorus]
Your face ain’t haunting
Your name ain’t gold
You’re just another low-end story
That’s already old

[Chorus]
There’s nothing worth saving in you
Not your name, not your face, not your soul
Rot in your own skin
Choke on your own control
I won’t burn your picture
That’d give it too much worth
You’re trash in human form
Walking, talking dirt

[Verse 2]
Fake soft eyes, fake sad boy cry
Mother’s boy, liar’s pride
Apron strings still tied
Pathetic fuck, acting like a man
But running back to mummy’s hand
I watched you fuck me over
Like it meant nothing at all
Now I hope every girl that meets you
Leaves laughing at how small

[Pre-Chorus]
No deep love lost
No history that stays
I cut that shit off
And threw it all away

[Chorus]
There’s nothing worth saving in you
Not your name, not your face, not your soul
Rot in your own skin
Choke on your own control
I won’t burn your picture
That’d give it too much worth
You’re trash in human form
Walking, talking dirt

[Bridge]
Two inches ain’t a crime
But acting like it’s more should be
No real man leaves scars and runs
That’s some weak shit, you know it
I could scream, but silence kills better
You won’t hear me, you’ll just feel it
Every time she touches you
And you know you ain’t it

[Final Chorus]
There’s nothing worth saving in you
Not your name, not your face, not your soul
Rot in your own skin
Choke on your own control
You ain’t a ghost, ain’t a god
Ain’t some untouchable thing
You’re just a joke
Walking this earth
With nothing worth saving

[Verse 1]
I say I’m fine when they ask me
Smile like I’m strong but it’s empty
He said “forever” then watched me break
Left me with pieces he didn’t take
I fake a laugh and play it cool
But I still ache like love’s a wound
He told me lies that sounded true
Then vanished like they always do

[Pre-Chorus]
They think I’ve moved on and healed
But I’m still stuck on what was real

[Chorus]
I’m still here still holding on
Still pretending nothing’s wrong
He tore me down but I got through
Even if I’m black and blue
I keep my voice calm and clear
But don’t mistake it I’m still here

[Verse 2]
I trusted someone I called him a friend
He waited until the moment would bend
I turned around and just like that
He crossed the line I can’t take back
And Hawk he knew the words to say
Made me believe then walked away
He touched my soul then left it bare
Like I was never really there

[Pre-Chorus 2]
I wear my silence like a shield
But deep inside I never healed

[Chorus 2]
I’m still here I fake my sleep
I’ve got wounds that run too deep
They see strength but they don’t see
The war that’s still inside of me
I keep it quiet disappear
But truth is yeah I’m still here

[Bridge]
I don’t want revenge I just want peace
A quiet mind a little release
They say I’m fine they think I’m free
But I’m still haunted underneath

[Final Chorus]
I’m still here not clean not whole
Still feeling every place he stole
They took so much but not my fire
I’m still alive I still rise higher
He never loved me that’s the scar
But I still breathe no matter how far
I didn’t quit I stayed sincere
I stayed alive I’m still here

[Verse 1]
Woke up feeling fine, made my coffee, had a smile
I put on a playlist that makes me forget for a while
I danced around the kitchen, laughed at nothing real
But then your ghost slid in like a silent reel

[Pre-Chorus]
I tell my friends I’m good now, don’t need you at all
But some nights I still wake up hoping for you to call

[Chorus]
Some days I’m fire, I’m flying so high
Other days I’m drowning in your goodbye
I don’t need you, I swear, then I break
Sometimes I miss you so bad it makes my body ache
I’m fine, I’m wrecked, I’m free, I’m chained
I’m sunshine lost in pouring rain
Yeah, I’m okay without you
Until I’m not again

[Verse 2]
I scroll past your name, heart aches like a stone
Half of me hates you, half can’t leave you alone
I scream into pillows, laugh with a lie
Truth is, I miss you and I don’t know why

[Pre-Chorus]
I tell my friends I’m good now, don’t need you at all
But some nights I still wake up hoping for you to call

[Chorus]
Some days I’m fire, I’m flying so high
Other days I’m drowning in your goodbye
I don’t need you, I swear, then I break
Sometimes I miss you so bad it makes my body ache
I’m fine, I’m wrecked, I’m free, I’m chained
I’m sunshine lost in pouring rain
Yeah, I’m okay without you
Until I’m not again

[Bridge]
You’re the poison and the cure
The crash and the allure
I go hours not thinking about you at all
Then I’m choking on silence, dying to call

[Final Chorus]
Some days I’m fire, I’m finally alright
Other days I’m curled up losing the fight
I don’t need you, I swear, then I fall
Craving the nothing that gave me it all
I’m strong, I’m weak, I stand, I bend
I don’t need you, but even I know that isn’t true
Yeah, I’m okay without you
Until I’m not again

[Outro]
Maybe one day this storm will pass
But tonight, I’m shattered glass

[Verse 1]
You left like it was nothing new
Like I was easy to undo
But you never saw behind my door
The version of me on the floor
You smiled, you laughed, you moved ahead
While I couldn’t even leave my bed
You never saw the sleepless nights
The panic, the pills, the losing fight

[Pre-Chorus]
You tell yourself I just moved on
But I was barely holding on

[Chorus]
You’ll never know how dark it got
The way I broke, the way I lost
You never saw me drown in pain
Hands shaking, screaming out your name
You’ll never feel how cold it stayed
The empty hours, the mess you made
You walked away, you never thought
You’ll never know how dark it got

[Verse 2]
I stopped eating, stopped my friends
Closed the curtains, let it end
I stared at walls for days on end
Thought maybe death was just the mend
You lived your life, you kissed her lips
While I was slipping off the cliffs
I lost my faith, I lost my skin
Fell so far I caved within

[Pre-Chorus]
But you’ll never sit with that regret
You’ll never carry my side of it

[Chorus]
You’ll never know how dark it got
The bathroom floor, the pills I fought
The way my body gave out cold
The nights I prayed to not grow old
You’ll never taste that bitter fear
The silent screams that no one hears
You lived your life, you never thought
You’ll never know how dark it got

[Bridge]
I wish you’d seen behind the door
The lifeless girl you left before
But you were smiling, breathing free
While I was buried underneath

[Final Chorus]
You’ll never know how deep I fell
The silent hell I knew too well
You’ll never see the scars I hide
The part of me that nearly died
You’ll never carry one regret
But I’m still crawling through it yet
You walked away, you never thought
You’ll never know
How dark it got

[Verse 1]
She sat me down with careful eyes
Said, “Tell me the truth, no more disguise”
“Why did he leave? What went wrong?
Why do you look like you’re barely holding on?”
I could’ve told her how you lied
How you broke me down inside
But I bit my tongue, I let it slide
And made her think it’s all my fight

[Pre-Chorus]
It’s easier to take the blame
Than speak the truth and stain your name

[Chorus]
I took the fall so you look clean
Told her you were everything
Said I broke us, pushed you out
Said I filled the space with doubt
I made it sound like you were gold
That I’m the one who lost control
She doesn’t know the wreck, the scars
I took the fall to hide your flaws

[Verse 2]
I told her I was hard to love
Said I gave up when it got tough
Said you were loyal, said you stayed
That I’m the reason you walked away
She bought the story, every word
While I drowned beneath what they heard
It’s easier to break apart
Than let them see my shattered heart

[Pre-Chorus]
I wear the weight, I wear the shame
While you walk free without your name

[Chorus]
I took the fall so you look good
Said I never understood
Blamed myself for all the cracks
While you just smiled and turned your back
I made it easy to believe
That I’m the only one who grieves
She’ll never know how hard you pulled
I took the fall so you look whole

[Bridge]
Maybe one day I’ll tell the truth
But I still bleed protecting you
It’s easier to lie than face
The way you left me in this place

[Final Chorus]
I took the fall, I let it slide
Buried the wreck you left inside
Told her I was never strong
That I’m the one who did you wrong
But deep down, I know what’s real
The lies you fed, the scars I feel
I hate the weight, but through it all
I took the fall

[Verse 1]
She still thinks you were good for me
Still says I let it go too fast
Tells me maybe you’d forgive me
If I’d just admit my part in the past

She doesn’t know what really happened
Only what I let her believe
And I just smile and let her say it
While I sit with what you did to me

[Pre-Chorus]
I could break it down, say every word
But I’ve carried this too long, and it’s barely worth it

[Chorus]
I’m still holding it
The lie I told to keep you clean
She thinks I wrecked a good thing
Still says I should make it right
Still sees you in a softer light
She doesn’t ask what you took from me
She just wants me to let it be
So I keep holding it

[Verse 2]
I said you stayed, said I gave up
Said I was cold, said you were kind
And now she talks like you were perfect
Like I’m the one who crossed the line

She still believes I should fix it
Still thinks I walked without a fight
And I just let her say your name
Like it doesn’t still keep me up at night

[Pre-Chorus]
You left the mess, I cleaned it up
And I’m the one they think gave up

[Chorus]
I’m still holding it
The version I gave her, soft and neat
While you got to leave discreet
She still thinks I broke your heart
She doesn’t know you tore me apart
So I smile and let her speak
While I keep rotting underneath
Still holding it

[Bridge]
I made it easy for you to go
And she still doesn’t even know

[Final Chorus]
I’m still holding it
Not because you earned my grace
But because I can’t face her face
She still thinks I gave up on love
But I was just surviving you
I took the fall
And she still doesn’t know

[Verse 1]
I’ve spent a year building his name
Told every person I’m the one to blame
I called him good, I called him kind
Said he’s the best I’ll ever find
I said he loved me with his whole heart
That I’m the one who tore it apart
I smiled through every lie I told
Protecting him like solid gold

[Pre-Chorus]
Because if they knew the cracks he made
I’d have to face the mess I became

[Chorus]
So I let him go for his own good
Told them I’d break him if I could
Said I walked away to save his light
That I’d just ruin him overnight
I praise his name, I guard his face
While I’m the one lost in disgrace
I wear the blame, I choke the truth
I let him go for his own good

[Verse 2]
My best friend asks me why I hide
Why I don’t fight to stay in his life
I tell her he deserves the world
That I’m just poison dressed as a girl
I talk about how much he gave
How hard he fought, how much he stayed
But every word just cuts me deep
‘Cause I know it’s all a lie I keep

[Pre-Chorus]
If they knew the way he let me break
They’d see the love I had was fake

[Chorus]
So I let him go for his own good
Told them I’d wreck him if I could
Said I walked away to save his light
That I’d just ruin him overnight
I praise his name, I guard his face
While I’m the one lost in disgrace
I wear the blame, I choke the truth
I let him go for his own good

[Bridge]
I could’ve torn his name apart
Exposed the cracks behind his heart
But I held back, I stayed small
Took the fall, protected it all

[Final Chorus]
So I let him go for his own good
Played the villain like I should
Told the world he never failed
While I unravel, frail, derailed
I call him perfect, I take the shame
Let everyone worship his name
But deep down I know what’s true
He broke me first
But I shielded you

[Verse 1]
You saw me smile, thought I was fine
Like I wasn’t still sinking slow
You thought the dark was done
That maybe I’d really moved on
But I pulled back
Stopped calling, left that gap
You never asked, just let it be
And I never said what he did to me

[Pre-Chorus]
You spent your life catching my fall
I couldn’t let you take it all

[Chorus]
If you knew how bad it got
The nights I drank, how much I lost
If you knew the things he said
The way he fucked with my head
If you saw the cracks I hide
You’d blame yourself for letting it slide
That’s the truth I always protect
Even now, with every breath

[Verse 2]
I lied and said he brought me peace
While he wrecked me piece by piece
Told you love was why I stayed
Not fear, not shame, not getting played
You saw a light, I let it show
For once, you weren’t weighed down, I know
And when it all turned black again
I kept my distance, didn’t come then

[Pre-Chorus]
I wore the mask so you’d be free
From one more weight you didn’t need

[Chorus]
If you knew the nights I cried
The fights I lost, the parts that died
If you knew the truths I bent
So you could breathe, not resent
If you saw the version he broke
The grip, the games, the words he spoke
You’d wonder why I let it slide
But some things, J, I’ll never say

[Bridge]
I needed you to think I healed
Not watch me spiral, raw and real
I needed you to breathe, not fall
Not watch me break, not see it all

[Final Chorus]
If you knew how deep it went
What it cost to just pretend
If you knew how hard I tried
To keep you safe from what’s inside
If you asked, I’d fall apart
Couldn’t even get the words to start
So I just keep on telling you
What I need you to think is true

[Final Line]
But some things, J, I’ll never say

[Verse 1]
They say I look good now
Like the fight is done
I sit through dinner
Like I’m not trying to run
But every bite still screams
“You’ve lost control”
And I still grieve
The days I let it go

[Pre-Chorus]
They clap for the weight
But they don’t know
The empty girl
I still won’t let go

[Chorus]
I miss starving, I miss the high
That quiet ache I couldn’t hide
I miss the way my body felt
Like I was fading into myself
Now I’m stronger, now I eat
But most nights, I can’t sleep
I still dream of the ghost of me
Even if she almost buried me

[Verse 2]
Used to skip three meals
Just to feel in control
The hunger meant power
It made me whole
Now they say I’m brave
For taking bites
But I still cry
When the jeans fit tight

[Pre-Chorus]
I know she lied, I know it’s pain
But sometimes I want her back again

[Chorus]
I miss starving, I miss the rush
The sharp control, the fragile hush
I miss the pride in turning down
Another bite, another round
Now I’m healing, now I try
But some days, I still want to hide
I still reach for the ghost of me
Even if she almost buried me

[Bridge]
She’s not who I want to be
But she still whispers constantly
In the mirror, in my skin
Begging me to let her in

[Final Chorus]
I still eat, I still pretend
But God, I wish I could starve again
Wish I could feel that hollow space
Where all the noise would be erased
Now I’m breathing, now I cope
But some nights, I lose hope
Cause I still ache for the ghost of me
Even knowing she’ll never set me free

[Outro]
Yeah, I still ache for the ghost of me
And some days, I wish she'd come take me

[Verse 1]
You said forever like it meant something
Held my hand like you were bluffing
Promised the sky, gave me dust
Made me think it was real, made me trust
Now I look back and all I see
Is someone who never really saw me
You talked big, but it was all cheap
And I fell for a promise you couldn’t keep

[Pre-Chorus]
I thought I’d drown in losing you
But I barely got wet once I knew

[Chorus]
It wasn’t love, it wasn’t fate
Just a lesson dressed up as a break
It wasn’t deep, it wasn’t true
Just a boy who didn’t have a clue
And yeah, I cried, but now I see
You never really got to me
I thought I’d break, thought I’d sink
But baby, you just weren’t that deep

[Verse 2]
I let you ruin perfect days
Put your silence on replay
Thought I’d never get over the way you left
But I’m good, I’m light, and I’ve got breath
You’re just a name I don’t say out loud
Just a face I scroll right past now
I gave too much, but not anymore
You’re just something I don’t cry for

[Pre-Chorus]
I thought you’d leave me torn apart
But you barely made it to my heart

[Chorus]
It wasn’t love, it wasn’t right
Just another almost in my life
It wasn’t deep, it wasn’t soul
Just a lie I tried to hold
And yeah, it stung, but now it’s clear
You never got that close, my dear
I thought I’d drown, thought I’d grieve
But baby, you just weren’t that deep

[Bridge]
I’m not bitter, I’m just free
From the story I wrote about you and me
Turns out the fall was just a trip
And now I laugh at what I miss

[Final Chorus]
It wasn’t love, it wasn’t pain
Just a detour off my lane
You never cracked the realest part
Never made it to my heart
I thought you mattered, thought I’d bleed
But it was shallow underneath
Now I know, now I breathe
You were never
That deep

[Verse 1]
I used to wait on your reply
Staring at the screen like you'd come alive
Poured my heart into the blue
Got nothing back but the ghost of you
You played quiet, I played loud
Tried to break through, but you tuned me out
I gave it all, you gave the bare
I screamed into the empty air

[Pre-Chorus]
I told you things I never told
You gave me silence, ice cold

[Chorus]
You left me in an echo chamber
Every "I love you" came back stranger
I was talking to a wall
Falling, while you watched me crawl
You let me drown in your retreat
You let my words just hit repeat
I was alone with nothing returned
Echoes
While I burned

[Verse 2]
You said "I'm tired," said "not now"
Like love’s a job you can clock out
I reached for you through static noise
But you were busy killing joy
I stayed late, I held the weight
You shut the door, left me to wait
You never said much, never asked
Just let me talk into the past

[Pre-Chorus]
Every time I bared my soul
You left the silence in control

[Chorus]
You left me in an echo chamber
Words came back a little fainter
Every cry, every plea
Came back bruised and haunting me
You let me fight for something fake
You watched my heart begin to break
I was alone in that cold repeat
Echoes
On repeat

[Bridge]
Stopped talking, nothing changed
Stopped trying, you stayed the same
Now I see you for what you were
An echo I no longer serve

[Final Chorus]
I’m done with the echo chamber
No more love that turns to vapor
You can sit in all that space
While I reclaim what you erased
I’m not a voice you'll mute again
I’m not a girl who breaks and bends
I left that room
I closed that verse
No more echoes
I come first

[Verse 1]
You left like I was nothing
Like my wreck didn’t mean a fucking thing
Silence where promises used to burn
Took everything, gave nothing in return
I bit my tongue, held the flood
But I bled while you played good
Kept my name clean, kept my mouth shut
Now I’m done carrying your cut

[Pre-Chorus]
You thought I'd cry and keep it quiet
But I’m done, I’m done staying silent

[Chorus]
You don’t get to forget my name
Don’t get to wipe off the blame
While I bled out, while I broke down
You moved on like I’m not around
But I’ll make sure you feel this burn
Every bridge, I’ll let it turn
You don’t get to walk untouched
Not after everything you crushed

[Verse 2]
You think she’ll love you better
Let her hold your dead letters
But she didn’t see me hit the floor
Didn’t hold you through the war
You wore my heart like your own toy
Lied until you destroyed
But I’m not soft, not anymore
Your name’s carved in every door

[Pre-Chorus]
You thought I'd cry and keep it quiet
But I’m done, I’m done staying silent

[Chorus]
You don’t get to forget my name
Don’t get to wipe off the blame
While I bled out, while I broke down
You moved on like I’m not around
But I’ll make sure you feel this burn
Every bridge, I’ll let it turn
You don’t get to walk untouched
Not after everything you crushed

[Bridge]
Every song, every scream
I’ll turn your peace into a bad dream
Won’t let your story lie
I’ll write the truth until you fry

[Final Chorus]
You don’t get to forget my face
Don’t get to outrun your disgrace
While I bled out, while I broke down
You moved on like I’m not around
But now your name’s on every line
Every lyric, every rhyme
You don’t get to walk untouched
Not after everything you crushed

[Verse 1]
Should’ve stopped at one, but I was blind
Gave you two, no more time
Twice was dumb, I’ll say it straight
I’m clear, it’s too late

[Pre-Chorus]
Blocked your name, shut that door
Wouldn’t touch you anymore

[Chorus]
Not a third time, even if you begged
Never again, I meant what I said
Should’ve seen it from the start
You were never worth my time
No rewind, not my kind
I don’t look back, I leave it behind

[Verse 2]
Look at you now, don’t feel a thing
Don’t want your face, don’t want your grin
I missed it once, yeah that’s true
I wouldn’t touch you even if I could

[Pre-Chorus]
Blocked your name, shut that door
Don’t want you anymore

[Chorus]
Not a third time, even if you begged
Never again, I meant what I said
Should’ve seen it from the start
You were never worth my time
No rewind, not my kind
I don’t look back, I leave it behind

[Final Hook]
You were never worth my time

[Verse 1]
Funny how I cried for you
Thought you were the best I’d do
But now I see, let’s be real
You were never that big of a deal
I gave you gold, you gave me games
Now I don’t even miss your name
You lost the prize, I’ve moved on
Guess who’s been textin’ me all along?

[Pre-Chorus]
You made the rules, thought I’d obey
Guess what, babe? Not today

[Chorus]
You were never that special
Not worth the heartbreak, not on your level
You said don’t text your best friend
Babe, I already did
And I might take it further
Just depends how I feel
You were never that special
Now I can see
Lettin’ you go looks good on me
New dress, new vibe
Say it loud, say it clear
Should’ve known I’d be the one you’d fear

[Verse 2]
Told me I’d regret the day
But look at me, I’m doin’ okay
Glowin’ up, wild and free
Love how sweet the payback feels to me
Your best friend’s cute, and that’s no lie
Might just cross that little line
You can keep your pride and pain
I’m too busy runnin’ the game

[Pre-Chorus]
You made the rules, thought I’d obey
Guess what, babe? Not today

[Chorus]
You were never that special
Not worth the heartbreak, not on your level
You said don’t text your best friend
Babe, I already did
And I might take it further
Just depends how I feel
You were never that special
Now I can see
Lettin’ you go looks good on me
New dress, new vibe
Say it loud, say it clear
Should’ve known I’d be the one you’d fear

[Bridge]
The glow-up’s real
The joke’s on you
Your biggest mistake
Was thinkin’ I’d lose

[Final Chorus]
You were never that special
Not worth the heartbreak, not on your level
You said don’t text your best friend
Babe, I already did
And I might take it further
Just depends how I feel
You were never that special
Now I can see
Lettin’ you go looks good on me
New dress, new vibe
Say it loud, say it clear
Should’ve known I’d be the one you’d fear

[Verse 1]
It’s quiet here
Too quiet to breathe
The kind of silence
That sinks into me
The fire’s gone
The fight burned out
Now I’m just smoke
And shadowed doubt

[Pre-Chorus]
I thought I'd feel free when it was over
But I only feel colder

[Chorus]
This is after the end
When the world stops spinning
No goodbyes, no revenge
Just the slow, slow thinning
Of everything I used to be
And everything you left in me
There’s no light, no rage to send
Just me
After the end

[Verse 2]
Your name still echoes
But there’s no reply
Just rooms I walk through
Where pieces of me lie
The mirror don’t know me
The bed still smells like sin
I’m not crying
But I’m caving in

[Pre-Chorus]
I’m not healing, I’m not whole
I’m just filling in the hole

[Chorus]
This is after the end
Where the quiet screams loud
No more running to defend
No more blame in the crowd
Just me, the wreck, the mess you made
The silence in the bed we laid
No strength left to pretend
Just me
After the end

[Outro]
No closure, no clean break
Just bones beneath the ache
If you ever wonder what became of me
I faded
After the end